Handsomely

2009-09-01T18:40:00.000-07:00

It was unexpected. I don't know why I'm so concern! But I'm very worried about the dishwasher! Can't he treasure his life and go hospital? :( His life matters! it matters a lot! His parents sure gonna be sad!
Okay, I'm quite work up.

I will feel shy when I talk about you.
shit.

2009-08-28T01:01:00.000-07:00

Something is wrong with blogger recently.
I can't find my post! haha though I know it's somewhere out there..

going for training at MOF sooon but I'm feeling kinda.. you know..lazy. hahahahah

2009-08-27T06:48:00.000-07:00

I'm using wordpress currently but I don't think I'll stop blogging for this web. Because I want to keep in contact with my friends still! and the only way would be this blog. (: Hahahaha so yeah, it's gonna be busy,going two ways.

Go wordpress and see if you want! (:
www.greenyslimy.wordpress.com!

I am so going to SLIM DOWN. Hahahahaha
AND THIS-IS-FOR-REAL!

I ate salad for the first time. ohmy goodness..
Hahahaha and it taste not too bad lehh. hehe

2009-08-23T01:50:00.000-07:00

I'm having a bad cough and flu now.
I thought I would be fine after fever is down.
But it looks like it's kinda getting worse. :(

I wish I could talk to you!

2009-08-22T12:09:00.000-07:00

Out with rebecca! :)

Went for jing yi's chalet and I had to go over to cousin's bbq already.
Sorry for not beingable to stay longer.
I hope you like the present!

if it's meant to be, it wil be yours eventually.

2009-08-22T10:00:00.000-07:00

I think my nose is falling off.
HAHA.

Had a great day at cousin's house.

I guess I was speculating too much about it. :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, JING YI!

thank you rebecca, for the company. (:

2009-08-21T09:24:00.000-07:00

Went job hunting with elyn, anthony and vilvum.
We were so keen to look for jobs we practically went in any shops that puts up a notice on hiring part-timers.
hahaha we were like so "S-T-E-A-D-Y!" hehe
Of course, we manage to find some and now other than wait, it's still wait.
Sat down to had dinner at takashimaya before heading back home!
Out with them to school gym tomorrow!
And, frisbee training ( like finally! But I'll feel weird.. and I dont think grace's coming, now I'll feel even more weird)
But still, I'm going! HAHAHA!

I put aeroplane on aida and I would feel better if you're angry.

I can't resist Famous Amos cookies.
Vilvum was tempting me from the time we walk from dhobby ghaut to orchard, telling me how nice it was.
Okay, I succumbed.
Oh my, I ate ehhhh
Aiya, tomorrow lose lor. HAHAHA!

So, when am I going to start the ball rolling?

when are you going to finally have the courage to talk to him?

Like never. :(

2009-08-17T09:25:00.004-07:00

you moved on 2mths ago.
and it was what made me afraid to take the first step again.
Once bitten, twice shy. this is so true.

2009-08-17T09:25:00.003-07:00

I was still down with fever in the morning. But still, I went out with clique! (vilvum, anthony, sheryl, terry, elyn and chong en) hahaha, Mum was like " go lor. you go lor. later you come back not feeling well, I sent you go clinic. "
I was looking forward to sentosa outing ahhh!!! So, die die I will go mann.
I was trying all sorts of ways to make my fever go down.
But it still stuck at 38.0
Pek chek!! So, I just went out.
HAHAHAH. I realised I was perspiring when I reach mrt station. this was the first time I felt happy perspiring because.. It means fever went down!! But I was afraid it might go up again. :(

Anyway, Supposedly the meeting time was 10.45 at dhobby ghaut, or 10 at bishan mrt. But end up.. I went to meet vilvum first.. elyn came later..anthony came next then followed by the rest. I was quite surprised I was early eyyyy. Usually my friends are the ones waiting for me.. and I feel bad about it. this is A REALLY BAD HABIT.
I'm trying to kick this habit.. no good mannn

Went for dental a few days back.
I've gotten a FEMALE doctor now!! HAHAHAH!! and she's more caring! haha!!
I LIKE! HAHA!okay, I'm quite mean..
But she's really nice.
I'm going for jaw surgery after I put braces for a year.
Quite tedious but I'm sure it will b worthwhile. :)
I'm only worried about the surgery.
I read in the form, it says I have to be hospitalised for 5 days and doctor says my mouth might be swollen because of the side effects.
furthermore, it's a surgery! Of course I'm scared. I'm really scared of it..

Idoittttt.
I was so "O-N" about losing weight with elyn just now man!
Then I just remembered I'm going for jing yi's bbq followed by my cousin's bbq man!
Idoitttt!!! I shall not be tempted, I hope! HAHAHA!
But food you know..

I saw him a few days ago,
I start thinking about the past..
My three years revolving round one guy.
Well, it's over jing yi.
you should move on, right?
it took me a really long time to forget..
I just wanted to talk htis out, don't worry. I'm fine, I just wanted to remind myself..
It's part of the reason why I'm kinda timid now when it comes to you know.
I don't wanna be so disappointed again. Really. It really hurts when you get so so disappointed. So, let's see how. (:

2009-08-17T09:25:00.002-07:00

Something's wrong with blogger. I can't see my post. :(

I hope I'll be well tomorrow to go out with clique!
But I doubt so cause' fever is coming back.
And I promised robin I'll be working later.

2009-08-17T09:25:00.001-07:00

we meet at the wrong place, wrong timing.

But meet up soon okay!

somebody's birthday is coming. heheheheh

elyn!

If I become a les, let's go for each other! HAHA
But I doubt so.
I'm sure you'll find a nice guy, sheryl! (:
Elyn again! (:

My head feels so heavy. :( Was looking forward to going out with flower and elyn today! Sadly, I was down with fever arrrr. It went down just now, but it came up again. And I promised robin I'm working later so let's hope I'll be fine later. No appetite for the first time. I think I didn't have enough rest, thus I was sick. I will be well soon! (:

Mum was like " see la, always care about others.. dont sleep somemore.."

they are my friends and we should be there for one another always, bad times or good times!

I hope I'll be okay tomorrow!

Clique is going sentosa! I wanna go, but..

I am super shyyyy, I don't have courage to talk to him yettt. :(

2009-08-17T09:25:00.000-07:00

And I feel real bad for not calling back to people. I should really try to adapt this habit of calling people back when they call.. But, I feel very uncomfortable when I do so..

I'll try!

Ant, cheer up!

OMG, vilvum, THANK YOU!

Okay, so now what? I have the number and email, but where do I start? Talk to him face to face or through mail? Hmm.. And guess wHAT, they are going school tmorrow!

I need to finish up drawings in order to sleep.

If not, I can forget about sleeping tonight.

2009-08-17T07:12:00.000-07:00

It's gonna be the first and last time I'm doing this.

I cheated during the exam. Not going to do it anymore!

tomorrow marks the end of school! But I haven't got to see j yettt!!

I'm going for dental appointment tomorrow and they are gonna schedule extraction of tooth dates followed by braces.

I will miss my food friends.. ( like kfc, pastamania, CHOCOLATE AND waffle..) hahahahah

how sad. :((

Gonna chill with clique! ( elyn, sheryl, anthony,chong en, vilvum, shi min, florence!) I really can't wait mannn

Alright, I have to do uncle's work now!

I saw rebecca! meet up soonnnn!!

I saw mr rodney yeo on saturday!

I'm quite worrried about retaking modules..

But well, what's done is done.

there's nothing I can do. :) I have no regrets actually! I know I did my best and I did!! hahahaha!!

I like you!

2009-08-16T03:29:00.000-07:00

I like you.

I woke up at 3.30pm today.
Wow, it's been such a long time since I last slept till afternoon.
Ever since school starts, I never had such a long sleeepppp alreadyyy
HAHAHAHHAHA
* grinss*

Right, back to work.

Shall chiong uncle's drawings together with flower tomorrow!

I miss maureen.
I know this is sudden but yeah..
I look through the photos last time and this gush of feeling just came out.
We used to be so close..
even though now we're no longer in the same school, I will still thinik of those timeswe had in school mannnn

BYE.

2009-08-15T10:42:00.000-07:00

why isn't anyone replying me on ebuddy? :(

Well, so much for this.. I'm tired, I need some sleep now! (:

Back to training next tuesday! (: And I'm so gonna improve the skills. I think Dorries is really nice!

Of course, dance as promised with suqi!(:

A new style when I go back to school in two months' time!

Bracesssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss!

2009-08-14T08:42:00.001-07:00

IWTLW now.

and this is the perfect timing to do so because I have two months to slim down!

It's going to happen because of you and I'm serious about it.

I really really seriously seriously ( X10) hope i can see you on either monday or tuesday!!

:(((( I regretted. and I dont know why I just got the courage to ask you NOW.

shesshhh.. and of all times, why now? why not when I can see you man? :(

I was late for work again.

I think TE is the only place that can tahan my tardiness man..

Half the time I'm late.

And for some reasons, I was so hungry today..

guess what I ate

1 packet of noodle, 1 packet of sweet tapioca, 1 bowl of rice for dinner!!

So sinful!!!!

Ugh, you know how much carbo it contains!! and how long it needs to burn them off.

I wonder how much carbo it contains actually..

I think there's quite a lot man..

AHHHHHHHHHH

Anyway, tomororw i'm going to study for kristy's test for at least 8 solid hours.

and I'm going running!!!!!!!

I miss you badly. :(

and it's super rare to see me use this..

rare.

2009-08-14T08:42:00.000-07:00

Most of my projects are done. Now(drumrolls)... I'm left with KRISTY GOH AND UNCLE'S DRAWINGS ONLY! HAHAHAHA!! and,

chill and work and dance! ((:

Kristy goh's notes is enough to kill me mann.

Uncle's work as well(because I'm lagging behind)

Had presentation today.

I think its not too bad actually. :)

I think la ah..

hahaha well, I did my best and like I always say, it's okay as long as I know I've done my best cause' god will do the rest! (:

After that had dinner at mac at amk before heading back.

i don't want anything. I just wanna go back to c____ real soon.

:(( I wonder why it takes so long for me to be a c_____, I wonder why.. and I always can't find an answer for it.

It's sad when you can't say out loud you're a c__ and it's not something nice to say you don't go c__ when you're a c___. but how many will really understand my situation?

Well, only (D)candy do. :)

But I seriously really want to go back there!!

I regretted not asking you for number again.

And today was perhaps the last day I'm going to see you because we're going to have a 8-9weeks of holidays. when we're back in school in 8-9weeks' time, you probably might have a girlfriend. I don't know why but when it comes to affairs of heart, I'm not open at all, not at all. I can't think postively as others and I like to keep i to myself most of the time.

And this long holisday I'm going to enjoy and C-H-I-L-L.

You dont need a whole lot of friends to be there for you.

Sometimes one or two suffice.

And when I need them.. who would be? haha, and I realise I'm always on my own..

I know I've got really good friends but at time when you're feeling sad, you just hope that someone might ask you " hey, you okay? " and that is all that really matters to me.

Little things counts..

even giving chocolate to a person feeling sad..

saying words of encouragement..

celebrating a friend's birthday by just gonig out to have a meal..

All these counts..

Working tomorrow! 12 - 6pm. After that I'm going to walk around to see what I can get for my friends' birthday. :)

2009-08-13T18:34:00.000-07:00

Something's wrong with blogger.
Hmm..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SUQI,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SZE LI,
My two lovelys, we'll always keep in contact right? (:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHONG EN!
their birthdays all falls on the same date. HAHA

dinner with (shi min, sheryl, elyn, florence, anthony, chong en, vilvum, terry and justin)after that I went back home. On the bus, I thought of going home first before meeting buddy and sp.
End up I didn't went home and meet them striaght.
Passed sze li her birthday cake (:
I was saying " you sure smile when you see the cake! haha"
so she open and of course, "mr funny" made her smile.
We promised to meet up soon right? heheheh

Intention was to pass birthday cake to suqi only.
But her mum asked me to go up to her house to have dinnner together.
Quite ps ar.. though I went to her house countless times already.
Among the friends I have, suqi's family is the closest to me. hahah I just realised.
thanks for the VERY SUMPTOUS MEAL.
Took a family photo with them all and of course, suqi's boyfriend was there also. (:
Am glad they are both still as loving and, suqi, meet up soon okay! and our deal!
I'm very happy to know that we're still as close though we're in different school now.
And I'm very proud to say Even after she shift house to punggol, our friendship will still be as close man!
IT'S A D-E-A-L! (:

Yesterday was the end of egg holder project!
My egg holder turn out fine! HHAHAHA! thank god!
thank god I found my spray paint which made the egg holder look better. hehehe
It looks quite disfigured before I spray the paint.
I'm quite worried i'll fail. but well, I did my best so there's nothing to worry about jing yi! ((((:

Saw him countless times but i just couldn't open my mouth to ask him for his no.
Ugh
Guess what, today is the last day of school (sort of) and I'm not going to see him for like the next 8/9 weeks!
:(

I need my beauty sleep.
I didn't slept for 2 days and it's really tiring man..
But it's all worth it!

I like chatting and doing work all night long with vilvum and chong en!

HAHA

It's only the first semester and I'm already quite close with my classmates!

It's only the first semester and I'm missing my beauty sleep already!

Next tuesday marks the start of holidays!
people, we should meet up and go out and HAVE SOME FUN.

:D

I wish I was braver, I wish I had courage to ask.

2009-08-10T10:19:00.000-07:00

I'm done with one panel for colour studies! * clap clap*

HAHAHAHAH

5 more to go, GG ( a new language I learnt)

heheh.

But well, just believe you can, and you can,for sure mannn!! (:

Had fun doing at chong en's house.

Had a great time chilling at mac after that with vilvum and chong en.

concentrate, stay focussed.

Nothing else but work now!

JIA YOU PEOPLEEEEE

WOO HOOOOO!

2009-08-09T06:28:00.000-07:00

If thinking about it makes me feels sad, I would rather not brood over it at all.
I really don't wanna think about it but I just can't stop thinking. :(

Well, Life's like that la ah...
HAHAHAHA

JUST CHILLLLL AND ENJOY LIFE!! (: REALLY!

I'm waiting for holidays to come so I can...
meet up with many many people. (:

2009-08-09T05:33:00.001-07:00

I've got loads to say!
HAHAHA

firstly, i didn't lose my wallet.
I just misplaced it.
And.. guess what, I thought IT went missing!! (hahaha) and I even went to the bus interchange to ask for my wallet twice when it was at home all the while. It dampens my mood whole day man.. HAHA
I was laughing to myself when I saw the wallet and I was like "L-A-M-E!!!"
hahahaha well, at least I found it and I'm gonna carry it with me everywhere I go, even toliet man!
It's like so precious to me.
I know it's becoming more black(dirty) and I've like use it for a year. But sometimes, It't the meaning behind that really matters, reallly.

I've one word to say to justin and anthony:
GRATEFUL, really grateful.
I'm not sure whether I'll pass this module but I'm thankful for the help given!!
HEHEH!
THANK YOU!

Hmm, was supposed to present my ICA3 last friday but somehow, the com and the projector wasn't working when it was my turn!
I was super nervous.

thank you sheryl and terry for saying "jia you"
It helps! HAHA!

Went for work yesterday.
this boy called me "jie jie" HHAHAHAHAHAAH!
i WAS So overjoyed! LOL.
hehe
very rare leh..
Cause When I'm working, I look SUPER SUPER SHAG.
shag until... er.. you shall see when you visit me! (:
Wanted to post picture of brian complaining to wei jie about the closing job thingy.
HAHA damn funny! i SHALL post pictures when I blogger is okay already. (:

Gonna do colour studies at chong en's house. I'm goig to draw it out and paint it at his house tomorrow! Gonna be a pretty fun day again!

Dad! thanks for the advices given!

I really really like you, but I'm scared you wont like me back.
I've experienced it many times and that made me take a step back now.
but holidays are coming! If you know what I meant..

Loads of projects due next week!!

I MISS FRISBEE
I MISS FRISBEE TRAINIINGS.
I MISS THROWING FRISBEE
I MISS FRISBEE MATES LIKE WEI QI, VERNON, CLARA, GRACE, COLIN, JOWELL!
man.. and I saw gabriel last friday, he was like" you not going back frisbee?"
I was like.. " yes, next week! "
but then.. I think it will be next next week.

OH YA!
9days more to dental appointment.
No more good food. :(
I'm extracting my four beautiful teeth soonnnnn :(

And of course, go school and learn dance. (:
definitely.

2009-08-09T05:33:00.000-07:00

2009-08-05T15:39:00.000-07:00

Still can't upload pictures lehhhhhh :(

I have pressing problems in mind now but well..
LIFE's good! hahahaha

It's about 6plus in the morning and guess what, I'm wide awake, not least sleepy at all. HA! I had a nap just now from 12-3 so I feel kinda refresh. But I'm not sure about later. HAHAHA. Well, let's see how mannn

I'm almost done with corrugated, left with head and legs.. Hmm.
hahaha.

I'm going to try out later.
I know 80% is disappointment,rejection but yeah JUST GO.
hahahaha!
At least I tried so I won't regret. (:

2009-08-05T06:14:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JUSTIN. (:
small prank cum celebration at swensens @ bishan.
Then we headed to the so called balcony area and took LOADS of photos!
I'm like waiting for vilvum to upload on FB!! HAHAHAHA
Had a super fun day and nwo it's time to settle down and do some work that has been untouch for days!
I've got plans to do which first!
-CORRUGATED AND ICA3 ( FIRST PRIORITY )
if I'm free, I'll do my colour studies. :))
okay settttttttttttttttttttttttttt!

I had so many chances today and I hold on to none.
Utterly disappointed with myself man!!
:( you seem so close yet so far.

Right, now it's time to do my work. :))))

2009-08-04T07:38:00.000-07:00

I CANT WAIT FOR TOMORROW! *EVIL LAUGHTER* HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH
SUPER LOOKING FORWARD TO TOMORROW MANNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN

guys, life's good! (: CHILLLLL
HAHAHAHAHA

2009-08-04T06:32:00.000-07:00

give me a few more chances to try it out at least!

stepping out of my comfort zone.

Holidays are coming.

i AM looking forward to it because I can work part-time and go TRAINING! :)

On the other hand, I'm not cause' I can't see you for close to two months.

man, this sucks. :(

Mum, thank you for not giving me any stress at all.

dad too!

2009-08-02T09:49:00.000-07:00

Sometimes once in a while when you see a nice taxi driver, you will feel good.. And my lucky day was on saturday! conversation go like this:

me: uncle, go khatib mrt..

uncle: okay, sle or the normal route?

me: I'm fine with it..(look at time, realise going to be late! so I changed mymind)

me: go amk instead(then I took out my wallet and count If i've enough money)

me: I think go orchard instead..(worried because I've got only $21 with me, feeling scared!)

uncle: where you going?

me: work, going to be late ( having traffic jam now)

uncle: what time you work?

me: 12

uncle: *wah*, I send you there la

me: *stunned,HAPPY!* uh... but not nice ar.. thanks!

uncle: once in a while it's fine, I also have children like you.

me: thank profusely.

uncle: *smile* and say it's okay, once in awhile..

me: can't stop smiling! HAHAH! I was like " thank god! "

and guess what.. I was so lucky( normally khatib to paragon will need 15 buck/16 frommy place..and I was going from woodlands to paragon) because the meter stop at 20!

before I went off I said: " thanks so much! I hope to see you again!! and I ran for work cause' I was late consecutively for three times. you can see robin's face turn white to black.. and even blacker..

and that night, dearest called me out of blue..she said " I just wanted to talk to you, see how you're doing" and that was really really comforting man..(: Wanted to talk to her, but I was so tired so We didn't. :( Another person whomI can really talk a lot a lot to would be kai xin and yu jia. (:

stressed up because I don't wanna repeat module, stressed up because I'm afraid I won't have enough time to finish my work on time. And I don't want to repeat module!! the corrugated board is killin me. I wanna get it done tonight. I just aim for a minimum pass! seriously, I wanna move on to sem 2! no repeating of module! :(( But all of these above mention about being stressed up you won't be able to see it cause I will not show unless one day I'm super quiet.. I'm scared about repeating though appear nonchalant about it. Sometimes, I'm on the verge of crying but I know crying doesn't helps. Remain calm and doing my work well would be what I should focussed on . (: I need t get corrugated board done by today, nicely done!!

dad was asking me that day when I took back the pieces for corrugated." jing yi, you disappointed a not?" " and I said yes.. of course, but what to do? jia you lor! (:

Happy and glad because my catapult project is going to be over and it's niceeeeee! I LIKE, my baby! HAHA

THANKS TO ELYN AND FLORENCE, today was a super super super fun day! Laughter throughout the day, I miss laughing out loud with my crazy clique. :) ha, those good old times..

If not for her fever, shimin would be able to join in the fun too! rest well!!!!!! (:

I dont know if I should be worried for you or what..

Sometimes I feel people take me for granted but not helping out seems not a good idea to me.. I don't know what to do with mysef either.

I feel I'm missing out a lot on frisbee, but now what matters most would be the projects all done and handed in then CHILLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL.

stop thinking.jing yi, you know there won't be an ending yet you're placing high hopes on it. are you nuts or what? you didn't learn your lessons in secondary school? you're not scared of getting disappointed enough? please dont be a fool.

I wish I would leanr from all my lessons & past experience!! seriously. I wish I can learn to say NO. however, I dont know why, I just keep going all out even thouogh I know the result. and it sucks sometimes.. it really do.

2009-07-31T07:36:00.000-07:00

Okay, I seriously need to get some sleep now!
blogger is so nice to play with, especially when you've nothing to do you just keep blogging and blogging until your eyes are sleepy. now my eyes are so I can sleep very very peacfully!! HAHAHAH! (:

Now, SLEEP please, JING YI! if not you're going to be like a walking zombie tomorrow.

I know dad's intention, but sometimes I dont know how to... you know you know..

Catapult!

2009-07-30T10:26:00.001-07:00

I spent the whole night doing corrugated. It didn't turn out well, got rejected and even if I hand in next week, lecturer gonna deduct 20%! I may appear nonchalant about it but deep inside I care man. I care about the repeating module. I don't wanna repeat this module! Well, I guess I just gotta try harder! However, I really appreaciate sheryl, yi lin and anthony's help today though corrugated didn't turn out well but I was really glad you guys help me with it! THANKS! ((((:

Drank 5 cans of coffee and I was feeling super nauseous in the morning. I didn't even have strength to climb the overhead bridge, lucky mum was there to help me with my stuff!! ((:
Felt better after a few hours later. (:
But I'm so sleepyyyyy nowwww.

Gonna do catapult with elyn and justin tomorrow morning and heading over to justin's house on sunday to get the catapult done and over with mannn.
Report almost done so I can relax a little.
Next week's lesson ends at 6! ((:
and this is good news to ussssssssssssssssss!

ICA3 presentation next week!
Have to wear formal man! :(

My aim for this sem would be... " NOT TO RETAKE MODULE! (: "

sudden urge to update. I miss you like nuts. I dont know why this is happening either. I've got no idea why I'm like so over you when we have talk for only once, and I'm like so so crazy over you already! Something's not right, jing yi. How could you possibly just.. this is insane, and it'smaking me crazy when I htink about it. Well, on the other hand, wish,I wish, i HAVE that courage to ask for your number or even talk to you. But I always back out when I see you with your friends or when I see you. perhaps I'm a coward now. Not the jing yi I used to be. the " just-do-it" attitude I always have. Alright, I'm scared, I'm scared..

green makes me feel calm and better still. (:

God surely won't give me something anything I can't handle.

To reject abigail's offer to go for net everytime makes me feel awful but I've got no choice.

Lying isn't the way, definitely not for me. it's out.

And now, I shall sleep.

I hope weekends will b over in no time so that I can see you.

And your piercing is still there, I'm very disturb about it.

2009-07-30T10:26:00.000-07:00

I miss the band where I am able to feel a sense of belonging.

remember " BANDROXYEAH!" hahahah

and how crazy we were in band..

how I cry behind the gong..

how I was name the " gong girl"

how I enjoy my sec 1 band camp

how I missed those good old times in band

those childish yet SUPER fun times..

taking super funny videos with min qi,peck joon, hui min, xiang jun and fayyad at

orchid park condominium

staying back for band pract..

doing marching..

michael teaching me a certain rythm for a super long time..

to the point I think I'm really a slow learner..

and how patient he was..

late everytime for band pract..

end up I have to run because I was late..

run around the parade square..

shouting the number of jumping jacks super loudly..

played poker cards when we have nothing to do..

qiu yin stare at us when Yujia and I was talking at CDS

playing crazily at CDS

celebrate before a competition..

section outing at escape theme park

where I was the only one that did not went in haunted house

no matter how hard they tried to push me in..

how my section and I gotbonded..

how we were punished my charlene..

how funny it was when we saw charlene crying to a wall..

going genting for competiton..

singing on the bus till we reach genting..

can't stop singing the compe piece..

eating and playing when we were in our room..

going hong kong..

knowing anson.. super cute mannn!

shouting on the cable car and scaring myself that the cable car will drop..

going on the rollar coaster for the first time..

where I remember I was shouting like some crazy idoit..

waiting at the airport for the band to come back from aus..

I still remember how harsh I was on permyod..

because I want him to learn..

and indeed he has become become...

how I restrain esther from speaking vulgarities..

how percussion sectional like mad..

how hussaini take the section..

how percussion had so much fun together doing ensom..

graduating from the band..

and those secondary school days..

where we wouldalways order from "red plate"

the uncle from drinks stall who is very nice..

the photoshop auntie..

the cleaners whom I say hi everyday to..

trying to run away from miss soo..

miss kaur catching my shirt out..

never tuck in my shirt everytime..

MR CHIA!

MRS RUPESH!

MR NAIR!

and how my class would imitate mr chia speaks..

how we make mr nair angry..

how we make mrs rupesh laugh..

and my very first time sitting out discipline mistress room because I did not finish my compo..

and when I was sec 1.

when I was going to have an examthe next day and yet I went out to play..

how we drove miss li away..

how we drove "farmer chong" away..

how crazy the class were..

and my reaction when I saw javier..

I just ran away..

and how we celebrate charlene birthday..

where we cum everything(sand, flour,coke)into a plastic and just smash her..

end up we have to buy shampoo for her..

how we clean up the mess because flour was everywhere on the second level

when we celebrated qiu yin's birthday..

they bought pandan cake for me on my 15th birthday.

how they celebrated my birtday at sakae and I saw a cake

on the roller..

hahahahahahahahahaha.

all these are MEMORIES! oh my gosh..

can't imagine 4years just flew away like that.

all these are very memorable things that I've done for the past four years of my life. HAHAHA. even in future i won't forget all these things I've done..

they sure are memorable! I shall bring them with me to walk the rest of mylife!

remember, life's always good. (((((:

2009-07-30T06:52:00.000-07:00

I'm so disappointed with myself because I just don't have courage to confess!
Ahh and It's friday tomorrow.
I need to wait like two more days again before I can see you. :(
I shall try again tomorrow!
I've got this feeling you know who I am.

Missed two more frisbee trainings, I feel so apart from my frisbee mates mann, other than jowell.
I wanna go back, really.
But I feel I'm so out now. :((((

I need to complete uncle's drawings in two weeks' time or else I'm dead meat man.
Corrugated board needs to be done by today!
Handing in next week! i'm very sure I'll get it done today!! HAHAHAHA!!

Braces soonnn, finally. (((((((:

Everyone needs encouragement to move on. (:
A little concern makes a lot of difference.

Sheryl and anthony, get well soon!

Got more corrugated board today!
Have to chiong my egg holder tomorrow! hahahahaha

so.. what is this?
I dont even know you well but I can think of you the whole day.

2009-07-27T18:01:00.000-07:00

PEOPLE, JIA YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU YEAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
we can get it done and over with right!!:))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

I miss yj,mq,xy,kx,qy,xj!
Wanna post a picture but blogger having some problems..

for god will never forsake you.

2009-07-27T07:54:00.000-07:00

I was away for a week and I can't stand not updating my blog already!
Okay, I guess I'm just not determined enough to leave this blog alone and not touch it yeah. :(

there's a list of homework/project/assignments that have to be handed in 2 weeks'/1week/this week time.
Okay, I'm quite stressed up but CHILL man. hahahah
I shall strike out all in no time! :))))))))))
- Corrugated board. 31st july
- presentation for egg ( final mid-critique) - OVER!!! HAHAHAHAH!
- catapult project ( 3rd august)
- report for catapult project
- eyes
- nose
- mouth
- baby face
- cabbage
- pin-hole
- self portrait
- 20 hands
- 3d model(egg holder)
- Stf's homework (12th august
- portfolio for stf.
- colour studies( by week 17-last week of school!)
-evelyn tang's presentation

I would always ask myself to do my homework every night.
however, I end up sleeping!
And once again, I did it yesterday when I told myself to take a 30mins nap before doing my homework.
And I woke up to find younger brother going to school already, which means it's already morning.
hahaha it's quite funny la ah..
But the feeling is like "oh no, I'm so dead" :(

I'm very worried about k.
I'm not very close to her..but I'm worried.
I wouldn'twant my friend to fail her modules!
come school soonnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn!

And, I guess I dont have to think about going frisbee this few weeks either cause' there's just too much work I've to do. Of course I have passion for it! But I don't want to neglect studies again. :(
And I'm feeling so bad not going for training again. I already miss 2 trainings and I miss my friends and frisbee. I so wanna go for training. really. :(
However, first priority now would be studies.OTHERS i SHALL C-H-I-O-N-G during holidays!
I'm realy looking forwardto september!
o school! (:
But sigh.. perhaps I may not have the spirit to go frisbee after all this chiong-ing.

the colder you look on the outside, the more I wanna g-e-t-t-o-k-n-o-w-y-o-u.
And if only I have enough courage to just walk up to you and ask you for your number! U-G-H.
But I know I wont have that courage to.
And you look so cold on the outside!
sheesh, I know I should be focussing on my studies but this problem kept bugging me.
I tried focussing hard on my egg holder but, ugh!

I thank god presentation went pretty well, i guess! hahahahah
Was super nervous! hahah

As long as I did my best, I'm contented. :)
really! I just hope I wont repeat any modules!

And dad is always so nice. (:
everyday he would ask if I'm doing fine in my studies.
He doesn't give me stress at all.
:)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

Oh ya!
feels so weird when we had dinner yesterday but sheryl wasn't there.
I've got used to that clique that I'll feel kinda out of place if one or two isn't there.

I finally had BS with candy last friday! (:

It was alice's last day last saturday.
Shall visit her when I'm done with my project!
I miss ting-jie and mie mie as well!
I don't mind working at somewhere I feel very comfortable despite very low pay.
I kind of can't get used to raymond not being there.
Lucky fish is stil there, willie still there. :)

HMMM..
gonna chiong studies now.
I like the feeling of... EVERYONE CHIONGING WORK TOGETHER. (:
HAHAHA.
And I wanna have more time... to SLEEP! (:

Probably doing project later on. :)

2009-07-22T04:42:00.000-07:00

i'll be away for a good 1month to chiong and do well for my current projects.

till I'm done with my projects and all, cause' I really wanna get a gpa of 3 at least. I really have to chiong work now. seriously!

bye.

I wanna learn hip hop 1/locking! damn coollllllll! (:
and suqi and I are going to sign up for it real soon (: COOL!!
right right, and I'll be back only after 1month.
BYE!

I've not have a good sleep since last sunday.
I bought 5cans of coffee to keep myself awake.

and seriously, I wanna thank justin for helping me with rhino!! at least now I have an idea of what to do!
Gonna start doing the product tomorrow! (:

2009-07-21T06:59:00.000-07:00

Had uncle's lesson in the morning.
Went to look for materials before going to school.
After lesson waited for justin and elyn to do their ceramics thingy before going to kou fu to eat (finally!!!! I was super hungry!! hahaha)
Chong en waited for us at koufu too. After a while, anthony came too.
Went back first cause there's a lot of work I need to do. D:
But i'm sure I can finish it!! heheheheheheheheheheh
stay focussed now, jing yi
there's a lot of project that I need to rush! hahaha
Jia you man! (:
make-up lesson on thursday from 9 - 9. GG
hahahahah.
I learnt different kind of "words" (like GG, pek chek) from my friends. hahaha
And because of work I sometimes rather stay in class than acc my friends downstairs and I would feel bad too.. something's wrong with me, I feel bad almost at everything.
when I'm done with all the projects, I very sure I will acc you anywhere man!!!! :))))) hahahah

I feel bad not going frisbee training.
I miss it. :(
I hope to go back soon..

"HUAT AHHHHHHHHH" :DDDDD

it's better if you doesn't know me. :(

2009-07-20T08:15:00.001-07:00

Work's piling up.
I was stressed up when I know that we have to create the real egg holder ourselves!
It was like dreaming. I didn't even thought of making the real stuff out! hahaha sounds funny right, but it's true. I thought we just have to like draw sketches and hand in, maybe do mock-up will do. BUT i'm wrong, it's going to be R-E-A-L. hahaha.
thank you, mr lim. I'm so touched when I saw you helped me with my egg-holder stuff.
very very thankful! very very happyyyy!! that I can't contain my joy! (:
I've got an idea what I've to do now, just that the due date is coming real soon, very very very soon and I'm going to like " HUAT AHHH!!!" :)))

Training tomorrrowwwwwww!!
I'm quite sad when I know I'm quite lousy. :(
But if this is the case, then there's nothing but to train more often!!!! :)
thats the spirit mannnn
I wanna do my best in everything!!
So that at the end of the day, even if I didn't manage to get into any competition, at least I know I did my best!!!:) hahahaha!!!

2009-07-19T00:12:00.000-07:00

I'm kinda addicted to blogging.
Frankly speaking, I find joy in blogging. (:
I'll come blogger to update a few lines even though I've nothing to say.
Hahahah
I guess blogger is part of me, and I will feel out of place if I didnt update at least once a day. (:

2009-07-18T13:28:00.001-07:00

Okay, I said I will not update.
Maybe just pictures and if i have the time, I'll. :)

I ____ ___ terribly, j.

Dad says " better not hope for too much if not you'll get very disppointed if things doesnt turn out to be the way you thought would be."
Somewhat true , thats why I lowered many of my hopes and expectations.
Even knowing you as a friend seemed like a super hard task to me.
I'm super shy when I see people I don't know.
I supposed it applies to everyone out there. :)

Went back to work, great! ( because Fish, willie and sam was present)
It's sam's last day. :(
Hopefully I'll work with them again!
Fish! he's not worth it. :) you deserves better ones. :)

2009-07-18T13:26:00.000-07:00

Convo with kah kyun at 4.04 am; very surprising! ( cause we once in a while then will crap)hahahah and was quite funny eh..

it's 4.26 now but I'm not asleep yet.

Happy. =( I'd like to make myself believe. 5 out of 4 people have a problem with fractions. says:
now still awake
you siao
LOL

J. ultimately " CHECK YOU MAIL NOW! says:
hahaha
no la.
I need to send some stuff to my friends.
sian..
you also!

Happy. =( I'd like to make myself believe. 5 out of 4 people have a problem with fractions. says:
haha

J. ultimately " CHECK YOU MAIL NOW! says:
so late already still awake.

Happy. =( I'd like to make myself believe. 5 out of 4 people have a problem with fractions. says:
i slept alr
haha
7.30 to 11.30
=x
hehe

J. ultimately " CHECK YOU MAIL NOW! says:
LOL.
hahah
so you don't intend to sleep again?

Happy. =( I'd like to make myself believe. 5 out of 4 people have a problem with fractions. says:
haha
maybe later
=x
haha

J. ultimately " CHECK YOU MAIL NOW! says:
later?! in the morning?
you ah...

Happy. =( I'd like to make myself believe. 5 out of 4 people have a problem with fractions. says:
haha
you also!!

J. ultimately " CHECK YOU MAIL NOW! says:
hahah!
ya la!

2009-07-18T13:07:00.000-07:00

Hmm.. In order to refrain myself from dozing off in the middle of the night,

I ate this. Then I realise.. It's super sinful!

ugh, but too bad, I've eaten so I can't possibly spit out right. hahahahaha

look at the time.

I had nothing to do at night so I started camwhoring some super unglam photos.
hahahahahahahahaha and it turns out to be so fun! : )

I can picture you in my head, practically everywhere I go I see you.

Half of my mind is thinking about you.

So what should I do now?

Hmm,

2009-07-17T08:46:00.000-07:00

Happy birthday, qi hao! :)

as usual, I dont think you'll see this but i'll still post.

aiya, got used to it already.

you are 20! :) hahahaha!

enjoy your day. :)))

2009-07-17T06:37:00.000-07:00

Thursday

Lesson starts at 9 but I only reach at 11.40pm.

And it was partly because I slept at 6 in the morning and I asked mum to wake me up after an hour while i take a short nap. End up I woke up at 8! I asked mum why she didn't wake me up. she said yes she did, but since I keep telling her lesson starts at 1, she leave me alone.. but I dont remember telling her anything. I think I am too tired that I start talking without me knowing. And after the short convo, I went back to sleep cause I was so tired..

The next time I woke up was 9.40 but I told myself "haiya, still early.. sleep 5more mins "

the next time Iwoke up was an hour later, I was like "whoa, shitt I'm dead"

So I hurried, I thought maybe lesson end at 1 so stil have time. then I realise, no, it's 12.

and I reach school at 11.40!

I remembered someone said" wow, you come for 20mins then can go eat lunch.

I've improved, slightly.

I used to be late for 45mins or even an hour( my highest record) but this is only once in a while. So if you happens to be this lucky.. hmmm I still owe grace a mac drink for being late 45mins.

Anyway,

I saw you on the way to class that morning , super glad. super super happy. HAHAHAHAHA!super duper happyyyyy and I'm satisfied just being able to see you once or twice a day. :)

And I wonder if you've taken out your peircing. hmmmm.. this is random. I'm very disturb by the peircing at your eyebrow. very.

After uncle's lesson, wanted to learn rhino but I had to meet xin yu for ICE AGE 3! :)

we wanted to watch harry potter but the tickets were all sold out. :(

I didn't watch transformers too because dad was busy. :) it'sokay!

we can watch another time!!! hahahhaha

Met up with mum and I can't stop dozing off. even while eating I can sleep.

And I realise, I'm very obstinate and.....

(all chinese)

Mum was like "you okay not..so tired still want go np eat sia.."

me: " can one la..haha..I rarely eat with you all sia..I can one la.."

mum:"ni ah..always "ren"..pain also dont cry..everything dont cry..wonder if you're a girl or boy ah"

me: " pain "ren" lor.. of course girl la! grins.

mum: "you ah.. * tabolek tahan*

super slack friday.

Had studio work in the morning and comm skills after that.

there was a 2 hour break before comm skills so we went tothe library to do some work. :)))

End up justin and I started camwhoring and the rest join in too other than ant cause he was doing his work. :)

went back home to get hard disk and I was late for com skills lesson.

After lesson accompanied shawn to orchard. :)

spaghettis for dinner!!

I saw him. :) hahahahhahaha Okay, I know it's quite ridiculous to be happy to some people just being able to see someone. But I'm really happy just being able to. seriously, I'm satisfied. :)

PICTURES

Pressing problems but...please don't forget that.

LIFE'S GOOD, ALWAYS!!!

i always believe in this, always.

It takes more muscles to frown than to smile.

And, i'm leaving my blog to die until 3 weeks later when all projects are done!:)

C-H-I-O-N-G!!

I am aware of the outcome of this

Yet now I really wanna stop my mind from thinking so much and just GO.

I don't know how disappointed I'll get this time round.

but I would rather try then regret when I think about it when I grow up.

However, frankly speaking, I have less than 10% confidence to fight.

plus 90% is telling to give up cause there isn't going to be hope and what if there's someone he likes in his class since I think his class has so many potential ones. :(

i've been telling myself not to think not to think ,do your work, do your work but apparently it ain't working at all because I'm thinking of you madly, real madly.

I dont think it's gonna work out cause I dont think i'm worthy of you.

I dont have confidence at all. :(

but guess what wherever I go, I think of you.

I can even see your face in my mind..

Oh my gosh, sometime I think i'm crazy even.

Plus, I'm very shy. I won't talk a lot unless I've known you fo quite some time..

ughhhhhhhhhhh and this feelings sucks so much.

I wish I didn't talk to you, I wish you weren't in this school at at..I wish I wish I WISHHHHH.

And and what if you aren't what I've imagined? what if you're..scary?

2009-07-16T07:20:00.000-07:00

I don't know what got into me but I didn't mean what i say. I just wanna let out some frustrations keep inside my heart. ughhhhhhh!!!!
FRUSTRATING AR!!!!!!!!
I feel so vexed now, like there are one and a thousand things for me to do, for me to complete! ughh!!!
On a lighter note, tomorrow is friday. HAHAHAHAHAHA
Xin yu and I bought something for kl and sam.
frankly speaking, I'm really going to miss kl more than sam..(as a friend). I appreaciate every harsh yet meaningful words you told me. you make people misunderstand you by showing your-super-fierce face. but I know you've a nice heart, you just doesn't want to show it. Plus, because you're quite bad-tempered, you made people have the impression you're cold. but you're not!! you can be really funny at times..you're very straight, you always says very straight things in my face and I've got used to it also. hahahaha! I dont mind. heh! I sound as though I know him very well. But I dont think I've know him enough.. and when I want to really get to know them better, they are leaving. :( but then, it will definitely benefits them. I hope we can really work together again! Sam is a super nice guy too! but kl leaves a deeper impression because he taught me new things.
I can sense and from what i've heard from xin yu and xin yi, you always seem to treat me better than 2(xy)s.

time to start my part 2!
studio project ar!!! :( hahahhaha
I have to do no matter how much i procrastinate.
so, do la...

WELL... maybe I should really start stepping out.
should or not?
yes or no?

2009-07-15T05:49:00.000-07:00

i'm still happy, just feeling a little stress cause work is piling up.

so what if I really like you?

we don't even know each other.:(

But why do you keep appearing in my head.

why???!

and I always suck at this.

so!!!! MAIN FOCUS NOW:

BURY MYSELF AT WORK FOR THE NEXT FEW WEEKS. gonna chiong eyyy!! :))))))))))))

And, it's time to do my work!

I want to clear all and then go for training!

GREEN IS COOL, OH YEAH!!

2009-07-14T10:21:00.000-07:00

Mr smiley never fails to cheers me up.
suqi knows this simple thing can actually cheers me up the whole day!

she gave me three smiley items already!

thank you.

he's easy to draw, you just need to draw 2dots with a curve and a face. :))
"HAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHA"!!

he's always smiling so happily.

making me can't stop smiling once i see him. HAHAHA
TRY IT!! HAHA!

I'm serious, you'll smile when you see him!! hahahahhaa

2009-07-12T09:31:00.001-07:00

I was reminded of my o's results once again. :(
i still remember how reluctant I was when my friends asked me to leave the hall after i've taken the results. Mum was so worried about me she came up to look for me. Kai xin had difficulty making me leave the hall. And at that point of time, I was thinking" why did you do this to me?" I never slack. is this a joke? I can't believe my eyes, I even thought i took the wrong slid. Till now, when I think about my points, I will ____.

I appreciate what you guys did today! Though I was like #$%^@! ( don't get me wrong, i did not say vulagarities), i was thankful. :) But, I won't take any steps I guess.. I'm scared. it's a strong word.

met up with jing yi after lesson. Been a while since I last seen her. :) great feeling upon seeing an old friend. :)

I didn't know we can't wear boots so I brought in vain. :( but I can wear it when we play in the field tomorrow! I'll do my best in frisbee! Go-2 drill was fun! I've throw like almost 200plus throws I think. HAHAHA! I got to know new friends! hahahaha! cool.

Watching harry potter with xin yu as we've agreed to watch it together! I'm going with work-mates for the first time. *SUPER EXCITED!* Then, I'm watching transformers with my family! yay, I can watch the full movie now. HAHA!

Life's good. There are too many things for us to worry if you really think about it. So best if you can just think how to live life to the fullest, to be happy everyday! HAHHAHAHAH!!! I don't have emo genes in my character. I'm a "HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHA" person.

2009-07-12T09:31:00.000-07:00

tranquility.

2009-07-12T08:12:00.000-07:00

the guys. ( teck siong, jia hao, zimmer, zi peng, huai zhi and kerry)

si ling.

zimmer and kristina

3a2'07 ( not all)

rebecca. :)

Okay, I didn't do any homework at all this weekend..
I was lazy and I can only blame myself..

I need to force myself to get back to work now.

plus I can only have the so called "feel" at night.

ok la, i think it's some excuses i make for myself.
hahaha

but somewhat true cause I can't do work in the afternoon.

i will sleep instead of work.

I will do anyhting except my work.

I think I'm contradicting..

But anyway, I can post pictures! :)

FINALLY!

september is coming! *hints hahahaha!
Buddy and I are going........ hoho!

2009-07-11T08:19:00.000-07:00

Right now I'm thinking If i can tahan my physical training next week.
I'm looking forward to trainings because I missed about 3 trainings and my skills are going downwards! i'm going to jog more often to train myself more fit also!
sigh, but in frisbee I still don't know how to "just talk" to people.
I know who they are, It's not I don't wanna say hi, I don't dare! not I don't want, definitely not!
don't get me wrong man..
luckily I've got wei qi they all! and grace and clara and dallice!
And I hope one day I'll be like hayden, doris they all..
they are so cool but I don't think so.. :(

It's always at the point I wanna give up you give up hope again!
I saw wendy working at tampiness, candy message me and I saw a facebook message saying about something to do with not giving up, and talking about things I wanna have often are so hard to have it.

happy birthday in advance, yi jing!

five years of friendship and still counting!

2009-07-10T10:19:00.001-07:00

appearance doesn't prove a thing.
the heart mattes more to me.
character reigns above all.
I still want to get to know you. HAHA!

no more emo elmo la.
I emo super long already, time to get out of the "emo zone!"

tomorrow will be a better day, definitely!! hahahhahaha

2009-07-10T09:26:00.000-07:00

I reach school only at 9.30, just nice before I was considered late.
then communicaiton skills at 3pm.
I saw ____. and was super happy. :))))))
I meet up with kai xin to pass hui ling the watercolour she needed and then had dinner with her.
then meet up with yu jia and qiu yin at khatib before going down to bugis together for dinner!
So long since we went out together!
Xin yi came and we all went iluma to have dinner.
yu jia recommend some african chicken restaurant..
I enjoy eating mine but i think they had difficulty cutting their chicken. haha!
So we chat all the way till about 9plus.. before heading back home cause' i had to if not I would have stayed longer. we just kept talking.. talk about everything under the sun. hahahah and some really funny stuff.

afterall, It feels good to hang out with the old clique, the people I have known for about 5years. they are still the people I love to hang out with the most cause most of the time i'm with them. :) 1 gathering every 2months okay! :) min qi didn't join us. :( hopefully she can make it next time man!!

you can skip here.
but i don't know, i don't wanna think so much about it. once your mind starts thinking, it doesn't stop.
and I would rather retain another 3 or 5 years in secondary school. poly life has too many things I can't get used to.
I don't know what I want..
confusing mind.

(read this only if you know what i mean)
when i see people go c every sunday, i can only envy them.
when i see people go for net every wed/friday, the only thing i can do is to envy them too.
Like i said, I don't want to lie just in order to go c.
I feel so guilty not going c. but it's not like i don't want to go.. :(
can't stop feeling bad everytime abigail asked me if i'm going for net evry friday, when candy asks me if i've gone net on friday, when i see wendy at the marker but i don't have the courage to say hi anymore.. when i see church people like kristy and grace.. i dont dare go up to them to talk to them..
because i can't stop feeling guiltynot going to church and as a c, i should go!
I wonder when i'm going back..openly. and how i'm going to break the news.
but i know, g is the truth.
try being me..

i think having to think more at my age is a normal thing.
but sometimes i think there's so much on my shoulder..

2009-07-09T08:25:00.000-07:00

Had lesson today then went to amk hub with cheng ting, chong en and xiao long.
hahaha stayed till 7plus before going home.
I bought soccer socks! :)

Let me see you tomorrow.

2009-07-08T06:00:00.001-07:00

Something absurb happened just now when I met mum for dinner.
Quite scary but somewhat similar to what happened last year when rebecca and I went to study.
I didn't know I had courage to tell the person off.
But inside me was thinking, what if he stalk me? what if..
there's no point thinking what will happened since I have done what I should not have..
because I was rash for that moment. ugh.
But I'm still happy cause I taught him something called basic courtesy.
it's scary.

I did manage to complete my stuff just on time before colour studies.
And, thanks ahmad! pardon me for my informalities, for helping me with the "egg"
hahaha! I saw dallice when I alight from the train. wow, was talking a lot that i didn't realise.
And, I missed three weeks of training already!
I need to go running to built up my stamina again or else physical training I sure die.
hahahah but I'm not going to give up! definitely not! :)
Can lose weight eyy! hahahahah
Borrowed books from yishun library and I hope evelyn approves!
If she doesn't, I'lltry again! hahahah

you are still the same old you who never take anything seriously.
so when will you ever do?

trust is the key to happiness, isn't it?

I wonder when I'll learn. whatever la.

2009-07-07T04:28:00.000-07:00

Why should there be disappointment?
idoitttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt.
And Why of all places, pierce your left eye?!
But Sheryl's right. he might be just someone who likes piercing?
But i'm someone who's very particular about piercing.
Even so, I hope to see him tomorrow! :)
But i doubt so.

I went to thai express alone after going home fix to look if there are materials suitable for the project.
As usual, when i'm sad, i indulge in food.

Okay, now!
I have to start my color transition.. or I'm dead!

2009-07-06T07:53:00.000-07:00

I'll be meeting the clique on friday for dinner! :) Okay, it's nearly two months since we've really met up and talk... other than KAI XIN, whom I've meet up almost weekly or fornightly. :)
Finally.

I'm really glad I can meet the people whom I haven't seen for ages.
:)

I was looking forward to training tomorrow since my leg is recovering and I was thinking maybe I'll go for training, then chiong my work when i'm back home. But I just went to the blog and there'll only be pick-up and games tomorrow. So, i'm having second thoughts since i need to do mr wong's colour transition which I have yet to do.
I'm going to go on wednesday! and I really mean it.

As usual, lesson ended late but earlier than normal times. :)
And it was a really cooling day..perfect timing to sleep!

J.

2009-07-05T07:01:00.000-07:00

Hmm..
I'm left with these..
I plan to finish up my eyes,nose and the "mo" painting before i go to bed!

- colour transition
- 20 hands to perfect
- facial feature
- "mo"painting!

I DID IT..I FINALLY DID IT..
OH MY GOODNESS..
I FINALLY....DID... My watermelon!!! so proud of myself.hahahahahah!!
I seriously doesn;'t like painting.
I prefer marker work and colour pencils.
But after doing the watermelon, I think I like a little bit now. hahahahahahaha!!

brother and I fried eggs ourselves. :)
hahahahaa
And i think i've a great fam. :)

2009-07-05T01:05:00.000-07:00

I'm going back t school tomorrow (finally!)
However, I'm not ready to hand in my homwork.
Cause I still have watermelon, the "mo"painting and 20 hands( perfect them) to do.
i really need to do now.

Heard from fishy raymond resigned.
Sigh. And willie and kl has intentions of leaving as well. Even fishy is having second thoughts about staying. Abby left too, Ah hua left.. Seems like everyone is leaving TE. :(
I guess this is reality, people come and go...

2009-07-03T06:54:00.000-07:00

I love mum.

2009-07-02T21:08:00.000-07:00

I still can't upload any pictures because blogger doesn't allow me to.
but I hope I can upload the pictures of the gathering and frisbee soon!
sorry guys!

I feel I should go for those graphic design courses...
Instead of industrial.
I went to the four following youtube links mr wong gave us as our e-learning homework.
And, I got really interested..
Ahhh, nevermind.
I'll think of where I wanna go when I'm year 3, when i'm going to u.

I stayed at home the whole day yesterday, drawing my hands!
hahahaha

School's starting.
Training going to resume!
But dad don't allow to play till my injury has fully recovered.

I'm meeting wendy later. :)

2009-07-01T22:00:00.001-07:00

Went back for passing over yesterday with minqi.
Xinyi, candy and kai xin came over after that..
I saw Jane, and it was so long since i last seen her! i think 2years ago?
hahaha
Anyway, congrats to the new batch. :)

went amk to acc kx to get her pay
then Went pennisula to get some stufff with min qi and kai xin. then we walk from city hall to bugis.
:) Got more stuff when we get there. hahahaha
And, I still wanna buy more clothes cause' school's starting.
But I should start saving mymoney for rainy days.
:)

It was too much of a coincidence!
Min qi pasted the temperature sticker onto one of the mrt railings when we got down at amk.
then when we took the train back from bugis, we saw the sticker again. and I realise we were at the same spot, isn't this damn cool? and probably too much of a coincidence!! hahahaha

Well, I have to stay at home today cause i went out yesterday. And I'm done with evelyn tang's e-learning work and I did some of kristy goh's e-learning work too. :)
Mum's cooking spaghetti!!hahahaha

But kai xin they all are watching sunset!!
I've never watch sunset before...
I wonder how it looks like..
heheheh
I shall ask kai xin out again to watch sun set with me..

:)

I miss the 6 of them though.. (yujia, qiu yin, minqi,xiang jun,xin yi and candy)
the craziness we once had..
hahahaha especially the time qy brithday we spill flour all over level two and major tan was asking us to clean up. we were still playing while cleaningup the mess.. And the time we celebrate charlene's birthday. hahaha, it was so jia lat we had to buy shampoo for her to clean..now everyone has grown up and I still hope we do things like that inthe past..it's silly and dirty and crazy, but it was fun and full of great memories. we're still good good friends, and it's been 6years I think. I miss those times with min qi and hui min and peck too..where we take super unglam videos at min qi's condominium and have pizzas..hahaha
memories are always beautiful, and i shall keep all this memories with me! hahaha:) you can rest assure i'm not emo-ing. i just miss those times..those great great times..
I can't do that now..unless i'm with them and kaixin, peck joon , suqi, szeli they all! But i'm sure one day you'll see the other of me!! hahahaha but it will take a long time cause' i don't show my very insane side to people so soon.
hahahahahaha
andi miss... alot of my friends.

2009-06-30T09:16:00.000-07:00

Dad always says very optimist things to me.
Perhaps thats why I've been very optimist. hahaha
For example, he says.. hungry ah..eat lor.. homework havent do ah..do lor.. not enough sleep ah..sleep more lor..not enough money..earn lor..
And it's true that everything he says always makes sense. Even though sometimes I don't really wanna listen at his and mum's naggings or even brother's.
I did regret the time I ran away from home. I've never done that before and I thought I should have at least calm down first. it would be better that way.
I love dad and mum, even my elder brother and YONGKAI!
:) AND SERIOUSLY, i rarely, really rarely uses words like "love".
In fact,i don't say out but I do in my heart.
I love the people around me, whether good or bad, tall or short, fat or skinny, tanned or white..
But i don't say out cause some things is better left unsaid.

I don't know when ill learn to look at people but I know everyone has a heart!
And their heart surely is made of gold cause it's superrrr precious!
it must have been past experience or hurts that mde them hide their "golden heart"
I'm still very sure about that!
Okay, maybe I'm naive, but.. i think everyone seriously wants to be good. who wants to be the bad person, right?

And sometimes i do wish I can learn faster,think faster, have more friends faster..
But i realised, i rather be myself, though i learn slower, think slower, have more friends slower,
cause' at least, i'm happy with everything I have. :)
it's better this way right? :)

I'm not emo-ing, I'm sorting out some of my thinkings.
i LIKE TO THINK A LOT.
hahahaha and surely can think a lot when I'm alone.
I've slowly got used to being alone.
Most of the time I'm alone and slowly i got used to it.
I have god, whois always on my mind. :)

Live life to the fullest yooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!
yeah man!

2009-06-30T07:45:00.000-07:00

i can't upload any pictures at all. :(

I woke up at 6plus so that I can get sign on to the forum!
But I still didn't get in,
Ah, I don't care how I am going to do it, i'm going to sign in to the forum tomorrow!! and CMS!
(EVIL LAUGHTER!) hahahahaha
I want my attendance.
I was very pek chek cause I didn't want the attendance to affect my grades. :(
Seriously, I wanna do well for term 2!

I rather go back school than e-learning!

My egg holder concepts are almost done! and I'm very satisfied with it. hahahaha
thanks dad for helping me start with it. :)
thanks!!!

2009-06-29T00:42:00.000-07:00

I'm blogging for the third time and my work are still undone.
just got no motivation to do at all. All i feel like doing now is to rot. rot. and ROT.
And i guess the timing to meet to do project tomorrow will be push back because of the e-learning.
I didn't take my attendance at all today though i know what i have to do. hahaha was kind of pek chek when i couldn't sign in at all.
I'm watching "my queen" and it's a great show!

I am going to upload the pictures soon!

Alright, i shal go popular to get some stuff before starting work! :)
so lazyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

And there's no training tomorrow. :(
hopefully I won't be too lazy to organize one whereby we can practice our throws together! :)

I want go queensway

i learn to hide true feelings.

2009-06-28T23:13:00.000-07:00

I wanna have a movie marathon.
I wanna watch... transformers, I love you, man. Hanna Montanna the movie, the ghost of girlfriends past!

wowwowowowowowowo,
I want do anything butnot homework.
HAHAHAHAH but too bad i have to still. :(

2009-06-28T21:11:00.000-07:00

I'm probably gonna finish all leftovers(homework) by friday.
Jolene(goh)'s birthday is coming! :) hahaha
And of course the concert also.

Anyway, I HAVE A CHATBOX AT LAST! hahahah :)

if school had reopen this week, I would be going with sheryl they all on tuesday, as we had agreed on earlier to shop!

But now, I can't cause of the homework, and H1N1?

and i wanna have a good tan soon!

2009-06-26T08:29:00.002-07:00

ey pretty? hahahah

hot right..HAHAHAHAHAHA!

guess what this is. Feature jia hao. :)

The first thing I thought of when i open my eyes today was "GRACE!"

BUT i was late still! :(

I did try to be early, i even set my alarm clock earlier than usual.

sorry grace..

I guess tardy queen forever remains as tardy queen..

Anyway, grace and I reach there about 9. hahah and the funny thing was we took a bus from the interchange when the field was like so near only.

I even told grace i scared we might lose our way.

end up when we got down the bus, she was like pointing at the bus interchange saying," it's just over there."

hahahahaha

there's not much to update actually.

I'm very happy with myself cause' i did stay at home and accompany my parents! :)

Pictures for you to enjoy, loads of them!

i'm going to try harder for term 2!

i can see my eye candy soon!! hahahahha

2009-06-26T08:29:00.001-07:00

I did at least 3 more pages of egg holder! hahaha.

Went out with my parents later, like finally!! :)

meeting grace.p in the morning to go and support the rest!
I hope we won't feel weird there! :)

Pictures shall be uploaded soon, reall soon! :)

wow.

2009-06-26T08:29:00.000-07:00

As long as your heart knows, there's not a need for you to say out already.

I really envy people who can go c.
Too bad I can't.
but, nothing is impossible :)
One day I will!!
HAHAHAHA jia you mannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn!

unwavering faith keeps me going.
Continue to lead me! :)

2009-06-25T08:45:00.000-07:00

i love my juniors. :) i rarely use love if you realised.

i told you, "PERCUSSION ROCKS!"

and the band rocks even more yeah!

It's us again! :)

Wow, it's been days since i last update my blog.

I couldn't find one skin i really like.

And finally I found one today thats totally cool! (because it's green! HAHAHA)

I'm so obsessed with green that i wish everything I had was in green colour. HAHAH! crazy.

Was super tiring this consecutive three days.

(mon-tue-wed)

I went out with my cousins on monday afternoon.

Straight after that I went down to ecp for class BBQ!

Raphael and I rent the blades while ant and flower rent the bikes.

i've a pretty bad scrap on my leg because i fell down

I was still smiling when i fell.

Actually it was really painful.

BBQ was quite succesful i guess.

Would love to stay longer but I had to go join kai xin they all at pasir ris.

And I went down to downtown east to look for kai xin they all!

And I could stay over for the first time! HAHAHAH!

Okay, it might sound ridiculous to others but I was really excited. HAHA!

we(adeline, shi jie,cheng kok and I) stayed up the whole night.

Then we head down to changi beach around 5plus to wait for sunrise!

Okay, again it was my FIRST TIME! AND i was so fascinated with the sunrise cause

it was really spectacular and pretty!:)

Went back to chalet about 8plus after having breakfast at changi village.

Slept while the rest had breakfast.

Adeline had the energy to acc them to eat breakfast still.

shi jie, me and cheng kok practicallyjust doze off when we hit the bed!

Then we cycled from pasir ris to changi beach which was pretty cool! yet tiring.

I went back about 3plus.

and went to school straight after i reached home.

I felt I should at least tell ben the reason why i can't attend.

End up I was playing.

But the sting was so painful i gave up, i just sat there and watch others play.

the pus and all was like coming out and it was quite disgusting.

I regretted not wearing guards while roller-blading cause i can't play for sunday's tournament!

:( but grace and i are going down to give them moral support!

I'm so in love with frisbee! HAHAHA

Even if I'm going to have just grace they all or even alone everytime i go for training, i'll still go for training still! HAHAH ,because i'm addicted to training and all and of course, FRISBEE!

I went out today to do project with flower, shi min and elyn and I was late though i live the nearest compared to them.

went home as promised and did some of my work!

I miss bs with candy!!!

i strongly believe one day I'll make it with my family! :)

it's going to be a wordy post cause i didn't upload much pictures.

perhaps it's really time to mange my time better!

I promised dad to stay at home from today onwards! and seriously, the feeling of being at home is great. HAHA, i guess it's because i've been going out everyday since monday and finally I've got to rest! :)

Oh yes, I was so touched by raymond's words.

this was our conversation on my so-called last day since it would be a very long time the next time i go back to work again.

raymond: study hard, studies more important than anything

me: yes i will, though now still c.

raymond: then you better study hard. when you free then come down, it's okay.

me: I promised i will come down and help when i improved from c to a!

raymond: sure no problem, i'll hold to your name till you come back!

it's really hard to find a manager who would be so nice to part-timers now.

And there's a shortage of people also.

I've work there for about half a year.

i seriously don't mind the pay i'm having cause i enjoyed working there and i get along with people there,even kelvin loo! HAHA!

I'm always slow and somehow i got used to it.

slow slow lor.. hahahah:)

And, I really wanna do well for the term 2!

but, i dont' wanna stressed myself out. i just wanna do my best!!

And with god, anything is possible!

I've got one more week of holidays! :)

but i hope to go school soon so i can see my eye candy! HAHAH

i finally know whats eye candy is.

bad thing? good thing?

2009-06-20T12:46:00.001-07:00

I AM LOOKING FOR A NEW BLOGSKIN SO THIS IS JUST A ANYHOW-FIND-SKIN. :) I'LL BE BACK SOON.

2009-06-18T11:08:00.000-07:00

finally we talked.

I can't get to sleep yet. :(

I didn't join suqi they all for dou hua.. :(

stop dreaming all those impossibles cause' it's totally impossible to happen, jing yi.

HMM, i'M EXCITED YET SCARED CAUSE SHERYL,TERRY AND JOLENE ARE COMING! :))
SZE LI IS COMING TOO! HAHAHAHA oh my goodness..

2009-06-18T10:55:00.000-07:00

I'm scared i screw up the concert!

My body is aching all over, especially my arms and legs due to the PT we had on wednesday! It sure was hard. But it was challenging..

IWTSD!

I finally met up with my cousins and went out with my mum!!!
I always had to reject my mum/i can't acc her and she's all alone.
But i missed the chance to rehearse merry widow and alumni pieces.

I don't have to spent money to buy soccer boots! :) Dad found one! hahahaha

2009-06-16T23:53:00.000-07:00

I haven't start on my homework yet! *gan chiong* HAHA. last time people will say "gan chiong spider" but i have no idea why must have a spider at the back haha!
aiya..can finish on time one la! :D don't worry man. i'm sure I can finish on time! :)

I've got C for my ICA 2! but i'm very happy!! Hahahaha at least i didn't fail!
I shall try harder. currently so far All my modules i got C. I've got B and Ds too.. should get A ah, then balance.. HAHA! I'm quite worried i can't get into U 3years later but I shall leave it to god to decide everything. I shall try my best in everything!! HAHA! :) Worry also no use..so just try your best man!! But i do hope i get more Bs when sem 2 comes. then it will balance up.

Anyway, I saw somehting on my friend's class tee.
"it's not about victory, it's about how hard you fought the war".

we were having band rehearsals at op yesterday.
My juniors were like scared la.. so i said " life's too short, just play! and don't be afraid of getting scolded"
when you're afraid, you don't get things right and thats what always happens to me. so, i've learnt to take things easy man. HHAHAHA

Frisbee training was fun! I really enjoyed it! thanks senior! finally i got it right! :) physical training was very challenging. our "buddha clap" and "row boat"stuff sure was hard. you need a lot of "yi li"(in chinese)
Grace, clara, roger and i head to amk mac for supper! and we sure chat a lot.
HAHAHAHA! shall continue with grace later!
and i'm meeting xiu qi soon!

Everything is slowly falling to place, i hope after i say this things will become better and not worse.

BE HAPPY, ALWAYS!!!

2009-06-14T10:11:00.000-07:00

love!

We will always get to know new friends wherever we are.

So, some of your friends will forgot about you and move on even though you haven't forgotten about them..

You will end up being alone again.

But then, DON'TWORRY JUST BE HAPPY. THIS IS LIFE! AND LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL, AS ALWAYS!!! AND GREEN IS BEAUTY!! HAHA!!

2009-06-14T09:22:00.000-07:00

party was a blast. too bad I couldn't stay! :(

I got to know new friends! But a few new friends only.
I didn't know robin can be so wild man. I was lost for words when I saw what he was doing. and he's so sporting. but he looks super dao man. I hope I can get to know him more..or even let him smile more ( if i can la but highly impossible cause he just doesn't want to recognize me man. ) Plus, I can't interact with guys like i do with girls. I need to know the person more then I'll talk.
If not, you will think i'm super quiet.. but I'm not!
I'll tense up when i talk to guys even though i have one elder and younger brother at home.
Ah, you may think i'm like acting or what.. but it's true... really. And I dont know why I have this kind of weird behaviour.
I can talk to wei qi they all better now only after a month.
Anyway, we did friendship dance and there were so little girls compared to the guys.
We played this game whereby you have to pass a piece of seaweed(half of its usual size) plus, the person beside you will be the opposite sex! I was like oh my goodness..but it was really fun. the guy seating beside me is called wei jun(i think so) and I can feel his breath when we were passing! our lips was like 1mm away only. it was so close i can't describe. I watch others do it and from the side view they look as though they are like kissing!! HAHAH and the angle was like so accurate!
All the games we played mainly was to bond and know each other..
I see the other side of my seniors, they are totally crazy and wild people.. cool.
I'm really looking forward to tuesday and wednesday training. :)
"One for all, all for one" cool!
I know it's gonna be a tough training but i'm ready for it!
I'm all set to be tanned!

Crystal "long bang" me back to my home. I don't know her well and yet she did so, i'm so grateful!! serious. I reach home at 12plus and I really didn't dare to sleep at first. I almost had the urge to switch on all the lights i did the last time my parents went out and left me alone at home. And somehow I did cause i switch on my room light till morning.

it was scary, real scary.
you force me to choose this last option, which was to leave. you said" once you leave, don't ever think of coming back" I did what you say but it was scary when i can't find anyone. I wish my phone wasn't flat at that time. I seriously wished someone was by me even though it was totally impossible.

We don't even talk in school how can it even be love? I think it's only a crush. Ah, why so early? I haven't even seventeen eh.. HAHAHA!!I'm young!

2009-06-12T08:55:00.000-07:00

Dad replied my text message! I've been waiting since just now. HAHAHA
Feeling super relieved now that I've received his message! hahah

It's the start of school holidays! :)
But it won't be like holidays i guess. :( cause' there are like a pile of homework and 2 projects on hand. HAHA but it's okay la.

I'm currently at khatib mac with qian ling and kai xin.
I don't dare go home cause' no one is at home right now..

I'm so happy i got to know your name.
But I won't get to see you for two weeks..
oh my goodness..

And, you're very nice to me.
Please don't be..

Frisbee party tomorrow!
:) too bad I can't stay over!! but it's okay, there's always a next time. :)
Anyway, i'm looking forward to it a lot!

Had BS with candy in school.
rest well! thank you for going through lesson with me though you were very tired.
:) ugh, you've changed net! :(
But i'm sure we'll always stay in contact, always!! HAHAHAHA

Life's good, always!

2009-06-11T09:07:00.000-07:00

I'm sure there are a lot of silent readers at my blog.
And I am one of the silent reader at others' blog.
HAHAHA random seh..
HAHA!!

Anyway, I've realised it's been a long time since i last had breakfast/dinner with myfamily.
Maybe once in a while then we will..
Last time we always will have dinner/lunch/breakfast together
I'm going to have more meals with them!! :)
We went for a movie just now! hahahah most of the people in there were kids, my mum ,dad and i are like extras.hahaha!! but not too bad eh.. HAHA!!

I'm really really worried my parents and younger brother are going genting.
It's a bit ridiculous for me to feel worried but I'm really scared anything untoward might happen.
I can't stop thinking. oh my..
I hope they'll be fine!!
I feel so bad not being able to go with them because of school and commitments.
ugh..

Blessed be you name ,my god! :)

We were so close when we were young, what happened now?
i'm going to explode.

2009-06-10T09:18:00.000-07:00

Been thinking a lot lately. I will think about a lot of stuff when I walk home, when i eat, when I stare in blank space or even walking to koufu, taking the lift.. wherever i am I will think! oh my goodness..goodness man..I think so much(I do think quite a lot in secondary school also)but not as much as now! HAHAHAH
But I guess it's all part of growing up.
Crap with sheryl in school after lesson from 4-6.
I really appreciate that she accompanied me(maybe i think too much but it's okay, thats what i think!hahahah)
I can't really click in with my frisbee mates. I know I will slowly get to know them. I just need time for myself to get used to the new friends. I need a litle more time than others i guess. BUT IT'S OKAY!! I guess I'm like that la. haha! The more i think i've adapt, the more i have not.
:) i thank god wei qi and company and clara is in frisbee! If not, i'll be a lonely soul sia.
Only when i know you better, i'll start talking. If not, i'll be quiet.. :(
hahaha
BUT ANYWAY,
I still wanna thank god for placing me in this course though many times i'll regret.
I wanna thank god for everything in my life now!
It may not be the best to me but i'm sure god feels is the best and I should just follow! :)

2009-06-08T08:15:00.000-07:00

dont wait till it's too late for everything.

I thank god for everyone in my life, be it nice or not nice, be it good or bad.
Everyone is different. If we're the same, we won't need to make new friends.

I'm going to treasure everyone, each and every single of them even more now.
I'm not going to regret anything in life anymore.
Even if I got rejected or whatever, at least I did my best and everyhting i can.

I like everyone in my class, serious.
But sometimes i don't understand they react this way only. :)

am glad you're doing fine and probably soon i'll see you attached. :) I'm happy for you, seriously I am. I find her a nice girl too. :)

I couldn't stop staring into space(my mind thinking)after I've heard what sheryl and shi min said. I couldn't stop thinking about people around me..

I can't stop thinking.

i can't stop dreaming

I can't stop staring into space.

I can't stop myself from thinking all about my loved ones.

I feel life and death is so near.

It made me make up my mind to treasure the people around me, each and eveyryone of them. I might go any moment too.

maybe I got used to your presence, got used to you being there when i need help in B. you were perhaps the person with enough patience to teach me cause' I'm a very slow learner. I thank god a great friend like you! I don't know what might happen in future. Let nature takes its course. I can still remember what you say to me when I was feeling down.

I want to know my crush's name(and it's just a crush):) Nothing more than that. haha!

I LOVE MUM AND DAD!

2009-06-06T14:34:00.002-07:00

i'm glad just to have them in my poly life, each and every one of them!
I should really stop thinking so naively man, seriously i have to.
people are realistic! they are! and i have to start believing it's so true even though i don't wanna think it's true. As time goes by I realise people think of themselves more than others, you realise the friends you think are nice start showing the true colours and you find yourself being the most idoitic person cause all this while you believe that they are so pure and nice. you won't want to be in this situation cause the feeling just sucks so much.
I did promised not to talk about sad incidents.
I don't want to blog anymore.
goodbye.

2009-06-06T14:34:00.001-07:00

seriously, it's time to sleep!
timecheck: 5.45!

2009-06-06T14:34:00.000-07:00

and seriously, it's time i sleep!
timecheck: 5.45!

2009-06-06T13:45:00.000-07:00

I've done my flower! and dad help me out with my design for the egg! "D
YESSSS MANNNNN!!
OH YEAH OH YEAH!! HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAH
and it'slike almost 5 in the morning. :)

I'm going to pluck up just enough courage to talk to you, (if i can la) and it's just a crush i htink! HAHA but talking to you makes me nervous.

do you know that I don't pick up guy's call or even call guy other than maybe..peck joon?I told some of friends.. and this is true! really..i don't know why either.. i think no one will believe la, but it's true. I can stare at the call and don't pick up. it's better now, I slowly step out of this comfort zone i'm in. I have weird habits. In time to come, you'll know that I have more weird weird habits man! HAHAHA. just wait and see. oh ya.. i think my lift logic is different from people. But we should think of the lift first what..like you wanna go down but you're lvel 5 and the lift is at level 2. so tel me.. press up or down? UP la! I used to think this way too.. jolene laugh at me. but then, we must wait for the lift to come up then we can go down what.. isn't it this way? I wonder why my logic is wrong. Till now i still don't get it. but I just think what jolene(goh) says. "you wanna go down, press down(think of yourself! don't think of the lift)" HAHAHAHA and I find it very funny tho.. like i'm almost 17 but i don't know how to press the lift! HAHAHAHAHA. I wonder why I think this way too..I totally have no idea at all. haha!

I wanna get to know everyone better! :) Everything happens for a reason. there's definitely a reason behind that makes a person change and thats for me to find out!!

I'm worried about my parents going genting. I feel bad not able to follow them cause I thought I have presentation but i realised it was this friday. and, the next day would be frisbee party so i though i can go and i paid. Now it's too late to withdraw. I always thinks a lot but I will a lot a lot when my family is involved. Father has more white hair now, mum too. I'm worried you see.. The older I get, the older they become, they are not going to become younger. Thinking too much makes me scared so I don't dare think what will happen when I'm like 20plus. I just wanna spent more time with them! I've not been spending time with them since i'm working on weekends and only thursday i release early. Dad has been very nice by always waiting for me to reach home no matter how late. Whenever i need a listening ear, he's always there too. When I can't draw, he'll just find a way to help me. After work he'll fetch me from khatib mrt when he have to wake up early in the morning. If I don't reach home on time, he'll stay up just to make sure i reach home. I'm very touched cause' dad is the only person and i believe he'll always be the person who cares about me the most cause' he'smy dad! I've been seeing mum less lately too because of school and cca and work. But every morning, we would have breakfast together. Just hope I can spent more time with her!! I just don't think I'm fillial enough..

I love mum and dad a lot more than you imagine. if you know me, i rarely use words like "love".

*it's never possible between us, because i think so. yep, don't ask me who, figure it out if you can. HEH

Praise god man!!! :D

2009-06-06T08:21:00.000-07:00

oh my gosh!

:)
went to band in the morning.

aftermath, I went for hip hop lesson and wenthome to do my work.

I fell asleep while doing my "mo" painting.

Was really trying hard t open my eyes.

Went to meet yj and qy around 4plus..

Saw kai xin and hui ling so we went there together

in order to ensure min qi won't suspect anything, w had

"NGs" to make sure everything went well.

hahahahaha

yu jia and I had such a tough time.

cause' we had to walk the other way down so we had to come up with an excuse

and yu jia said" let's go breadtalk"

I was like.. go breadtalk to look for bread meh?

couldn't stop laughing.

She was really surprised when she saw the cake on the table

and we all laughed(me, yu jia and min qi) when we saw how(qy, hui ling andkai xin)

hide themselves. HAHA! you should see how qy does it.

Catch up a lot and.. i told them funny incidents in school like

the lift and the ice coffee thingy.

Candy came and look for us and we went to yishun mac to continue to talk

finally went home but we decided to take jump shot before going back home

then we saw michael, peck joon they all just opp of us at starbucks.

was really relieved we didn't do jumpshot or else..

HAHAHAHA!

i wonder 2years later will we still be as close as we are now?

what about 5 or ten years later?

maybe, maybe not.

something happened today and

I begin to realise life andeath..

is...

i-don't-know-how-describe"

I wanna treasure and not regret anything i do now!

2009-06-04T07:35:00.000-07:00

Next week marks the end of term one.
I wonder how i fare. (let's hope for the worst)
Anyway, I still don't like my course. I just like designing weird things..(idkw)
But it's too late to say all this since it's like going to be the end of term one so soon!
Maybe i can be a art teacher.. who knows? hahaha!! I owe uncle quite a number of homework man..(oh no..)
I was chattng with my brother, having "picnic "in the kitchen and i realised we've all grown up.

My younger brother did very well for his mid-year! he got second! :)

A big thanks to those who help me with my videos! :)
I didn't realised i had such impact on people.. really.

I slept at 4.30am. I was yawning and i almost fell asleep while talking to candy and peck joon.

integrity matters most.
Let's just focus on my work for the time being. :)
I don't even know your name. :(

2009-06-02T18:01:00.000-07:00

Meet up with grace and nadiah and siti for some video filming!
thanks people!

i look at the video and find out i miss myself.
I'm going to find the way back to jing yi. :)

2009-06-02T09:34:00.000-07:00

Most of o school's dance schedule have closed.
Gotta wait until july! (which is a good thing cause' i've got time to save money:)))
And i'm really serious about learning locking and advanced hip-hop

my heart never changes.
:)

2009-06-02T08:52:00.000-07:00

I feel weird without my specs on.
hahahaha vilvum says i look like a " KUKU" with specs.
so perhaps not having specs on makes me look less "KUKU", which is good! HAHAHA!

and i realise.. I've been very SAD, as in EMO!
so, no more emo. I'm going to accept the stress I have to face in this course. No matter how much i want to quit, i know it's impossible to give up this course and this school.So, I'm going to accept it and treat stress like part and parcel of life!NO MORE EMO-ING!It's definitely not like me to emo and be frowning. this can't be it, and it's going to stop here, TODAY ONWARDS!!
HAHAHAHA I'm going to have better time management and perhaps spent lesser time on going out/shopping. I'll work lesser hours to do my work, i'll sarcrifice my sleep to complete all that has to be completed. We will always feel stressful, so.. hahaha accept la! HAHA!!
there's too much things for me to worry about. Don't wanna think anymore, i wanna live life HAPPILY,truly happy!!:)

I can't deny I wish I was as good as the rest in frisbee. however, if this is the furthest I can go and the best I can give, i will just accept my own shortcomings. :)I'm very contented with who I am already. Even if I'm the lousiest player( I'll feel demoralised of course) but i'll be happy to be just be the lousiest person because at least i did my best.

And I just wana to be happy in life, wanna enjoy every single moment of it.
:) be yourself and be happy!!!
I'm sure money is not everything, it's never everything.
It's something you cannot don't have, but it's not something compulsory. (sorry, my english sucks.. haha)

Be truthful, be real!
"JUST DO IT" HAHAHAHAH!!
(oh yeah..nike do rocks!)

Frisbee was great.
I enjoyed it! and the "mo gui xun lian" will start after the party at ben's house.

I have to present on friday and i can't go genting with my parents.
I have made up my mind to go with them to genting yesterday but i realised i had to present..

I've gotta start absorbing and growing!

I don't what I'm going to do in future, perhaps art teacher?
HAHAHAHAHAHA!

I'm attracted to you! oh my..
But i'm sure it's just a crush.. HAHAHA!!
but still... i hope I KNOW YOUR NAME!

Are you truly happy, answer me with your heart.

2009-06-01T07:20:00.000-07:00

I don't know what to blog about.

i had a lot in my head. but i don't know what to say now.
i only have one thing to say about having shi min in my class.
which is..
I'M HAPPY AND GLAD SHE IS IN MY CLASS

brother's right, we can only have a few,very few good friends in poly.
i'm beginning to take in what shimin say to me.
Sometimes even I can't stand myself for trusting peopel so much.
why? why should i even bother to?
When i get hurt, cry lor.. cry already then again i start to trust people.
When I know this person is like that.. i still continue to treat them the way i used to..
I don't shoo them, i'm still treating them nicely
I don't know what can really make me be angry at them?!
I feel so idoitic and sometimes scolds myself for believing tem again
but, the niceness just comes from my heart.
I don't know.
even if after crying and hurt i will still treat them nicely
i FEEL I CRY SO MUCH NOW. but i can't stop those tears from coming down..
i don't like, i don't like crying! shi min asks me why i cry so much now!
i don't know!! i really don't know..
if you trust me, the niceness just come so naturally.
I don't wanna get hurt, but if i don't believe what others say, i'll feel guilty.
WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME? i really feel i can't control my emotions these days..
I don't like emo-ing, i don't like to be frowing all day long..
but what to do..
I don't know!!! and it sucks when i know i got hurt by people i trust!!!!
Shi min says" you only known them for one month.. why should you trust them?"
ER!!!
i feel like saying a string a vulgarities, but I won't!
never.
i dont know la!!

BS with candy tomorrow, i really can't wait to see my dearest candy!!!
I've got loads to tell her.

and, I've got an urge to call rebecca when i was feeling down today.
thank you!

Frisbee tomorrow!
I'm sure I'mgoing to be the worst player again.
there's so many good ones.

I know it's gonna be unrequitted, thats why i don't dare take the first step ever again.
Being able to see you is adequate.
If i can know your name, that would be oh my gosh!
but.. as humans, once you get this, you will hope for more.

2009-05-29T10:31:00.001-07:00

i usually likes to type out my thoughts on blogger.:)

Loads of homework to chiong finish by today and tomorrow and sunday night. JIA YOU MAN!!
Lucky for monday i'm left with kristy goh's homework.
I'm left with the moodboards to do only and i think that will not take too long so, i have enough time to finsh evrything! yes!!

Xin yu is working tomorrow! Ning yu is woring tomorrow as well! I tink phyo min and sam are working too!
HAHAHAH ,i've loads of company tomorrow! :D

We're at the 5th lesson for BS!
next tuesday is the 6th lesson, and we've finish at least half of part 1! :)
thank GOD! :D
hahahahahaha
It's been three years, but i'm just gonna hold toyou!

oh yeah jolene knows tih jern! oh my gosh!!hahahaha
but in this example we can see that sg is real small.. :)
not a bad thing though.

i still can't look through the hearts of people.
but i thank god i have some good friends by me who are always helping me differenciate!
hahahaha!!!!

Life's always good, as usual, the sun rise, and go.
:)

2009-05-29T07:13:00.000-07:00

How can it be possible when they are so nice?
I don't know, but I feel scared being in this class.
Why competitive? why compete? why must there be jealousy?
why? why think so complicated? why can't they be as simple-minded as others? why?! I don't understand!
i don't want to be simple-minded anymore...

Watched movie with sheryl and people and went back to school for CS1.
I felt relieved when i see you.

I finally saw reen, she's working now and doing fine also.
I thought i could reach school by 9.
but i reach 9.45
I went in, but went out of theschool cause' it was too late.

2009-05-25T21:05:00.001-07:00

I feel welcome when I went back to work the other day.
Everything slowly fall into place after i've work for 2to3hours.
Having willie, xin yu, sam and kelvin loo around was great!
Though I can't deny when kelvin loo is around, i'll feel quite scared la.
But i've got used to his character and style of talking la. hahahaha!!
I miss yan-jie and guang hui-jie a lot man! finally i GET to see them
the first thing they say when i went back was " you are not late!"
:))
thank god! :))

I realise chong en, anthony and sheryl are very nice people.
In the sense you feel very comfortable with them ( other than some bad words they will say, cause i dont usually say other than maybe like what the..)
But they are really nice! Like i say, i believe everyone is nice! and it must be some changes in their life that made them change. everyone was born nice and pure! :))))

Anyway, I'm done with colour studies work!
hehehehe

I miss esther, nadiah and qian ling.
I have a lot to tell them, hope to go back on a saturday to see them!! :)
I haven't done my job well as a friend to them.

2009-05-22T22:45:00.000-07:00

VILVUM ROCKS!

Should i continue learning hh?

hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

I'm going back to work today,

i feel scared. :(

BUT I GOTTA JIA YOU!!!! HAHAHAHA!!

BYE!!!

2009-05-22T08:34:00.000-07:00

Was really happy when justin offered to help me with my forms!!
I was supposed to meet him at 7.45 in school.
Turned out i only wake up when he called me. Lucky he called or else I don't know how I am going t hand in the works. thank you so much!!!!!!!!!thanks!!!!thankyou!!! :Di can't thank you enough!!!
although my forms wasn't like "WAH!", i was very satisfied with it already!
A lot of hard work was needed, especially the dimensions. I had a tough time trying to get it!

3DFORMS ARE FINALLY OVER!!

I can have my sleep and I'm going to sleep after i've blog.

Being a class rep definitely isn't easy.
I just hope I can inform everyone the assignments to be handed in and to do.
and do my job well (thats the main point :))
and My class is... FUN! hahaha

Wen to kbox with shi min, jolene and sheryl.
Had a really fun time singing crazily in the room and my watermelon juice taste weird..
I hope we can go out again soon!

While waiting for ICA lesson to start, we stayed in one othe classroom and chat/read through the notes for the test. there were (me, shi min,sheryl, anthony and chong en)
We were clique-ing(i think it should be like this.. haha!) really well(i think so) and we were talking and laughing so loudly that the lecturer from visual comm year 2 came into our class and asked us to keep our volume down. (shi min la! her story was so funny la!hahaha!!!)

ICA quiz was ok la.. I hope I get 20 and above? :)
Hopefully i do! :DDDD

Vilvum rocks.
My first impression of him was like " this person looks quite old.."
Now that I know him better, i realise he's REALLY FUNNY AND NICE!
and, he's brave.
He definitely will achieve better in future like what sheryl said.
He's so called my role-model now and now I totally think being in ITE wasn't a bad thing afterall.
HE ROCKS!!!

thing to be handed in next 2 week.

monday - STF's work, miss goh's tutorial,do moodboard (6 to be completed by the seventh week)
tuesday - corn drawing, the flower(using water colour to colour)and the mixing of primary and secondary colours.
wednesday - the nature object drawing
thursday- NIL
friday - my research on organice drawing and ICA work
monday- as many ideas/ sketches for my egg holder, 7 moodboard done.

2009-05-21T05:33:00.000-07:00

i like this the best. :D

Hard work pays off. but apparently mine always doesn't. I'm not refering to my 3dform now. I just wonder why I don't get "rewarded"with good results when i work hard. Iwill start thinking " am i not working hard enough? did something go wrong in the midst of doing? why can't I get "rewarded with good results" O levels is one of the many examples. but perhaps this is what i should learn to accept. AND should work even harder to prove to myself i've potential too!! ! hahaha! there's a chinese proverb that says " shi bai nai cheng gong zhi mu"

I find it hard to not believe what others say to me. I will take everything and wont even consider if they are telling the truth or not. It's not that I'm gullible(i dont know how to spell ahhah!) but.. I just feel like why not believe them instead of douting. :) Even in the end i got cheated, it's a lesson learnt. however, it's never a lesson learnt for myself. I'll just continue tobelieve what others say. contradicting right.. and my mum always scold me for trusting what other people say. I will go like, " trust la! doubt for what? " I don't know, i dont like the idea of doubting. If i doubt and he/she happens t be speaking the truth,won't she feel sad ? I am so sure, i will feel very guilty and sad cause i doubt her. I did try not t believe so much what others say, but end up i still will. hahaha

aiya, i believe everyone is very nice. :) because we're all born with a pure heart from the time we land on earth. :)))

I'm trying my best to cope in poly life. I thought I have gotten used a bit to the amount of workload but i realise it's t opposite. Many a times, i wanna quit and change course. But then, where can i go? chemical science? engineering?? business industry? I'm good at none of the following. Even if i am good, my aggregate prevents me to. art is my strongest and i love the subject. In secondary school ,miss soh will prompt to do our work when we don't. Now, I only have myself and myself to remind myself to do my work. sigh.. typing out my problems makes me feel better. I'm not trying to gain pity but I just need to pen down some thoughts somewhere and blogger happens to be it. Everyday I'm doing o level art at home. I'm sleeping in the wee hours( everyone else in my class does! haha) but I don't wanna get used to this kind of lifestyle. But, 24hours is not enough for me. I slept at 5am and woke up at 8 to prepare for school.

I slept at 3.30am yesterday and work at 9 to prepare for school. I need my sleep (I think everyone else does) Anyway, I just got to starting getting used to critism. I really appreaciate what shawn said today! really. I think what he says really make sense and it left me thinking where can i go if I never choose this course at all. NOWHERE except RP! What to do, i have already been in this course for a month.

it's time for me to grow up!

Of course, continue to smile everyday!!!!hahahahha!

2009-05-20T07:28:00.000-07:00

I'm at mac with kai xin now! since she's using the computer and I had nothing to do also, i did the same thing as her, use COM since it's free! hahahahaha

My class people like to online starting from 12am onwards whereas many of my friends is the opposite of them. hahahaha.
Anyway, I slept at 3plus am yesterday to make sure colour wheel, magazine and everyting for colour studies was done nicely!! hahaha, was very satisfied with my work! hahahaha

Hmm, went to xin wang with polymates! ( sherly, anthony, chongen, florence, jolene(goh), elyn, chen ting and of course myself., haha! THEN we went to shop around. anthony and chong en each bought a shirt for themself at num.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHERYL!

belated though. be happy always okay! :D

happy eighteenth birthday!

I felt super guilty when i didn't go for my frisbee training. :(

But i went today! :) hahaha

There's a lot of assignments coming up in school.

It's piling up like crazy and I'm on the verge of giving up soon..

But then, it's too late for regrets cause' other than design i don't think i like the other courses.

So, i shall just stay put! :)

gotta jia you man!

and, sleeping at 1plus and 3plus almost everyday is tiring me out. I wanna have a super long sleep and play till i drop(in the arcade) or even eat till i wanna puke! hhahahahaha, that would be so cool and it would be a good way to cheer me up too!

okay, gonna go study comm skills test!

I'm at changi airport' mac by the way, sending jin zhao off later.

I hope i get to the last train!

CHEERIOS!

2009-05-18T08:07:00.000-07:00

thank you, for standing by me :)

I've to learn to move on, to blend in to the new environment whether i like it or not. :)

My L, teach me how to be more likeyou!

CHEERIOS.

I think chong en should not cut his hair! He does have that feel of luo zhi xiang but.. hmm..

I hope sheryl feels better tomorrow! :)

I like hanging out with ziyan that bunch and shimin+justin!

I was afraid to jump and hang on the rod. :(
hahaha, it was a comical sight!

Auditioned all the way till kristy goh's lesson! hahahaha
That justin ar.. hahahahaha!!

I just have to get used to it!

2009-05-16T09:02:00.000-07:00

Friday

Met (shaun, nc and vilvum to do art) in the morning. - okay, i was late.
Comm skills was quite okay la. :)
then we went off. had two hours of lesson only! haha!
meet kx to go for dinner.. this was our conversation. really felt so happy!

kx : okay, so any place you wanna go?
jy: np?(northpoint)
kx:okay, let's go!
jy : (while on the train).. is there any particular place you wanna go?(thinking about thai express)
kx:you wanna go thai express ah? let's go!

oh my gosh, she knows that I wanna go there even tho i didn't say anything!
I was so surprised and felt there were some kind of telepathy.
cool!

Saturday

chill time!
Didn't went out with justin and people cause' I wanna spent time with my friends! :D
of course i know when i come back from those chilling times,i have to carry on with my work. :)
(I just have to get used to it somehow)
Went settlers at clarke quay and we really had a good time playing the game "taboo" man!
I went with kaixin, peck joon, yujia, hui ling, qian ling and qiu yin!
(tong)qianling couldn't make it.. but it's alright! we shall go again, with you!
Now I'm back home but i'm so lazy to start work.
But what vilvum says about work hit me so hard that the words stay in my head.
"don't wait til the last min. don't be lazy, you sure die if you do so"

I think everyone in my class are very nice people.
I'm sure they are, it's just that... i haven't got to know them yet!
I'm trying to.
real hard to.

I'm going back to work next week.

:) with love,

2009-05-14T10:18:00.002-07:00

Some sort of a crush.
but you're stirring my feelings to say out.

he recognize me! hahahahahahaha and jolene goh happens to be his friend also. somehow, so link up!

I shouldn't judge based on one incident only.

Been talking to sheryl a lot man!:) the class is bonding! hahahaha!!
:))

2009-05-14T10:18:00.001-07:00

I did quite a lot of stuff today, but I still can't finish all the homework!

But anyway, I like my colour wheel! hahahaha

And, I'm going back work as promised. :)
Sorta lazy to go back but it's time to la!
I can learn to cope with stress too.
but going back to work means, I've to finish all my work by fri and saturday.. oh my..

OHyes, i went jogging with qian ling(FH) and we ran all the way to seletar!
hahaha! we walk a very very long way back.
We happen to walk past grace's house so we went up to her house to disturb.
then we went home.
I wanna upload the taboo toy picture! so cool!
hahahaha

I'm beginning to get setlled down.
I've to.